Day 17 & 18 of mmmay17: a ball of anxiety

So I forgot to post yesterday, even though I did wear me made. Or rather, I was so busy shaking with anxiety and pacing that I didn’t have time to post. Oh well, what can a girl do?

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Another sweetheart halter neck dress. This was the first one I made, it was a sort of wearable muslin. It has some issues, but I still love it and definitely need to pick up more polka dot fabric. The waist was a little too bit for the skirt, so there are some puckers and bunching there (That were fixed in later versions). I had to take in the sides, and on later versions I raised the bust line a bit as the apex on this one sits a bit low on me (not surprising, I am petite after all). I also had to gather the center front a little as it was gaping and not sitting against my chest at all, the gathers helped a lot. The skirt on this one is longer than the other 2 I’ve made, which I like, it gives it a very classy vintage feel for me.

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Overall I love this dress and everyone else seems to as well, people can’t seem to take their eyes off it/me when I’m wearing it. This is obviously a tried and true pattern for me, I’ll most likely be wearing my other version of it over the weekend, given that the weather stays nice and warm.

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For today, I put on an outfit, and pretty much immediately switched out to a baggy tshirt, so I kind of failed on the me made outfit today. I tried, but I’m just too exhausted and my anxiety is too high for me to be in anything but super comfy baggy clothes. The shirt is a burda styles pattern.

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I’m not sure what’s going on with my mental health, other than it’s not good right now. I think the road trip did a lot more damage than I anticipated and now I’m dealing with the consequences and after effect of it all. I am trying and I am getting orders worked on and done and shipped out, but it’s very difficult. I’ve been in a lot of pain because all my muscles are extra tense from the anxiety and I’ve been tensing my jaw and grinding my teeth CONSTANTLY, I have to consciously unclench and stop grinding my teeth every. five. minutes. So there’s that.

I’ve also been working on my knitting to help keep my calm. I finished the body of the sweater I’ve been working on since around February. It’s a top down raglan, so I need to pick up the stitches from the waste yarn on the sleeves and knit those now, and then it’s finished! I haven’t tried it on at all yet, so I have no idea if it will fit yet. I know it’ll be more fitted than I originally anticipated and wanted, but I don’t think it’ll be too bad, it should still be comfy and wearable. I’m using Loops and Threads brand Woolike yarn in the Mauve colorway. It’s an acrylic nylon blend from Micheal’s and it’s a burgundy-berry color. I didn’t want to invest a lot of money in a sweater since I didn’t know if I’d like knitting sweaters or if I’d even finish it, so I didn’t want to waste the money on it if it didn’t work out. I definitely think I’ll be upgrading to something a bit more pricey (probably only cascade or something inexpensive like that). I’m using the Pretty Mallory pattern by Vera Sanon (It’s a free Cascade pattern)

And I caked up some of the Tennessee Souvenir yarn and cast on a pair of socks for that.

That’s all for today. Hopefully I’ll have some interesting things to show you this weekend!

3 thoughts on “Day 17 & 18 of mmmay17: a ball of anxiety”

  1. Take care of yourself. I suffer from Fibromyalgia and know exactly where you are coming from. It’s great you can still make and create. Keep hold of that but rest when your body tells you. I haven’t been able to sew in just over two weeks as my daughter has suffered a mental breakdown and I am constantly supporting her at the moment, which is heightened my symptoms. Hope you feel more calmer in yourself and in control of the pain soon. Take care x

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    1. I’m sorry to hear about yours and your daughter’s struggles right now, I know how hard both can be. I have fibromyalgia as well and it is so difficult, and so are the mental illnesses. I hope things balance out for all of us soon. I’m trying my best to keep sane and level. I’ve had my heat packs on me regularly for the pain and have been knitting and sewing a lot to try to calm myself. I had to stay home from an event tonight due to not having the mental/emotional capacity to deal with people. but I’m glad I did, I finished some things and have been working on knitting things that make me happy and drinking tea and eating chocolate.

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